| FM - December / Guilty Puppy |
[Dec. 28th, 2008|03:59 pm] |
The ride from LA to Maine was fucking long. I mean, shit, it was across the US. I haven’t taken a trip like that in what felt like forever, but it was awesome. Felt like I was free, even though I was cooped up with that demon bitch and well, Sammy. That was normal. Ruby, not so much and yeah, so we kissed and made up, it was still a little weird. I knew how much she meant to Sammy and while I found that highly disgusting, I guess I had to deal with it. I didn’t have to like it though. Everything would have been better if Emily was sittin’ shotgun next to me, but yeah. She was gone even though I fucking swear, she’s always with me. I dunno, maybe I’m tryin’ to hold onto something that I never really had. I know I need to get over her and I’m going to. Been tryin’, but nah. I’ve been cool holed up in the motel room, eating greasy diner food and watching Nick at Nite. Sometimes I turn it on America’s Next Top Model though, ya know, just in case.
Alec was a different story. He was my son and I had just met him actually when I uh, came back from hell. Not exactly the way I wanted to meet him, if I even wanted to meet him at all. It was strange that I had a son that wasn’t exactly that much younger than me, ya know? Just strange. That’s all I can come up with, but he was my son. Looked just like me and his wife, Grace? Talk about an awesome person. And then Jack. Dude, everything was fucking falling apart, fast. Emily was gone. Alec was gone and Grace was missing. Seemed like everything went down the drain when I came back and honestly? Kinda wish I was still in hell. Least Alec would be alive and have his family and Emily would have well, still been alive.
Rubbing my eyes, I dipped my head down and looked over at a street sign. We were so fucking lost and after about five minutes of debating, I finally turned down the street. Or, ya know, when Ruby bitched me out cause I was holdin’ up traffic. Whatever, fuck them. After a few minutes, we found the house and I pulled up on the side. It was fucking cold as shit outside and I grabbed my coat from the back and leaned forward, slipping it on before opening up the door.
I glanced over at Sam and Ruby who were looking up at the house and before we knew it, we were heading up the steps and to the door. Giving a nod to Sam, he knocked on the door and we waited.
[Cady/Sam/Ruby] |
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| Sept/Oct - "However long the night, the dawn will break."- African Proverb |
[Sep. 25th, 2008|11:19 pm] |
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Pulling out some cash from my wallet, I slapped some green on the bar and gave a nod to the pretty lady behind the counter. She grinned knowingly at me even though there wasn't anything to know. It wasn't like I was saving myself for anything, things were just different now. My son was dead and so was my girlfriend, or friend, or whoever the fuck she was. Didn't matter, she was gone. Sam was awfully busy these days with whatever the fuck he was doing and the longer we stayed at Grace's, the more I was going freaking crazy. It's like everything just took a pause and yeah, there were jobs here and there, but nothing much was going on.
The house was pitch black when I walked in and I didn't even bother turning on any lights. Sam was out, surprise, surprise and I already knew what he was up to. I told him before that I didn't exactly agree with it, but there wasn't much I could do. He was gonna do what he wanted and Ruby wasn't all that bad. Oh, don’t get me wrong, she was a bitch and I could never fully admit that she was 'alright' but there wasn't a lot I could do.
Walking into the kitchen, I grabbed a beer and walked back to the recliner and sat down. The night I came back, I sat in this very fucking chair and held my grandson. Felt like it was yesterday if I chose to ignore all the shit that happened between that, but I couldn't.
Popping the top, I leaned back and reached over, grabbing the remote and clicked the t.v. on. Flipped through a few stations before settling it on some reality show. Half naked chicks doing unthinkable things for a chance to win the heart of a rockstar? Pretty awesome. Didn't hold my interest too long cause I could feel myself falling asleep.
Opening one eye, I glanced around before sitting up and rubbing the back of my head. Well, I wasn't at Grace's place anymore. I was in some hotel, they all looked the same, just different wallpaper. I stood up from the bed and took a deep breath. Yeah, I wasn't in LA anymore. Bending the blinds down, I looked outside. "Great," I muttered and snapped the blinds back. I turned around and stopped in my tracks, seeing Emily there.
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| August topic: If you don't risk anything, you risk even more. - Erica Jong |
[Aug. 26th, 2008|04:32 pm] |
Ruby caught me off guard and the next thing I knew, I was being thrown into the wall. I let her do whatever because it wasn’t gonna take anything away from what just happened. Emily was dead. She was gone. She was fuckin’ gone long before I killed Lilith. There was no comin’ back from that and Ruby would be stupid to think otherwise. I didn’t mention it though. I didn’t shit, just let her get out whatever she needed to get out before she finally just walked away. It was surprising that she cared so much. I didn’t understand it, or her for that matter. Actually, it was a little frightening to be honest. I’m thinkin’ that Sam was doin’ some good for her, or maybe this is just who she is. I didn’t know.
Sharing a look with Sam for a second as he held onto Baby Jack, he finally turned and walked out of the room. Emily was layin’ there on the floor, her eyes were open, her mouth was slightly parted and I couldn’t take my eyes off of her. I didn’t want this for her, hell, none of ‘em. I made a deal to save my brother, I wasn’t expecting to be brought out of hell, but I should have known. Not that I would be brought out of hell, just the fact that since I was brought out of hell, that Lilith would come after us. I had the suspicion, I’d talked to Emily about it before we went to Mexico, I just didn’t think the bitch would be this quick.
( And it feels like tonight. Can't believe I'm broken inside, can't you see there's nothin' that I wanna do but try to make it up to you. And it feels like tonight. )
[Faith, Grace, Sam, Ruby] |
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| FM: August - Bliss |
[Aug. 4th, 2008|12:29 am] |
This was really happening. I was in Mexico, with my brother, Em and Ruby. Yeah, I put up a fight that didn’t really last long to Sam about Ruby, but in the end, we all needed a break and I figure even hot demon skanks needed a vacation. Yeah, her status totally just went up from ugly skank to hot skank since it was her thing to bring me back. I didn’t know what else to say to her besides ‘thank you,’ but I did have my doubts that I was sure goin’ to bring up when I finally talked to Sam. Except, that time wasn’t now. Just wanted everyone to be somewhat happy and hell, I wanted to be happy. I forced everything out of my mind for the moment. Lilith and the fact that I got brought back weighed heavy on me just for the simple fact that in a way, the deal was still broken. I’m thinkin’ there’s gonna be a pissed off hella demon comin’ after my ass soon. It was my worst fear at this point. Comin’ back and havin’ a family that I didn’t even know I had, I got my brother back and now Emily. Yeah, I wasn’t leavin’ just yet, that was for sure. I didn’t wanna go anywhere.
Besides, you know, the beach with the hottest chick that I know.
Raisin’ my eyebrow as I looked Emily over, I grinned a little and reached into the closet to grab towels. I think I changed my mind on that. She was just the hottest girl around, period. What can I say? I was a lucky man. Told her last night that I thought we were gonna make it, let’s just hope that my thoughts become reality. It’d be pretty awesome if for once, something did work out.
“Man, I got some pasty, white legs,” I complained once we were on the beach and Emily had already stripped off her clothes, now just leavin’ herself in a bikini. Appreciatin’ her for a moment, I finally took off my shirt and tossed it toward the bag, leavin’ myself in the boardshorts that I wore last night before our romp pretty much all over the penthouse.
She already had the towels laid out and I leaned down, grabbin’ the oil that she got in the gift shop.
“Get your sexy ass over here, woman,” I said as I sat myself down on the towel. Yeah, it was time for a nice little rubdown.
[Emilyyyyy] |
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| Now or never |
[Jul. 29th, 2008|04:47 pm] |
//locked to Em//
I'm comin' to get you.
//locked to Sam//
I don't like it, but I can't do anything about it, so get your ass in the car in five minutes.
//locked to Alec//
I have to get out of town for a bit, I'll be back soon though.
//locked to Grace//
Thanks for everything.
//locked to Ruby//
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